Tuesday, September 2, 2008

The first lecture this morning covered cell injury.  The process can be reversible but can reach a point of no return if a cell is severely injured leading to cell death.  Students kept simplifying different enzymatic pathways and inquiring about the universality of all that was presented.  The obvious answer is that everyone is different and whether something is fatal in one individual might not be for another.  Yet, some students couldn't seem to grasp this and continued to ask questions that would get them no where.  This prompted me to stop paying attention to lecture.  Instead, I pondered the concept of individualized healthcare.  Contrary to anyone's claim (that includes doctors, politicians, and media), there is no individualized healthcare.  Whenever you present yourself to a physician, all of your symptoms are combined with the doctor's experience.  The concept of 'you' doesn't exist.  A doctor develops a course of action based on his/her experience.  This seems to be ok for the common cold, but is well-known by patients with more serious health issues.  There are select doctors that are seen as the best neurosurgeons, plastic surgeons, and oncologists.  The reality is, they are the best.  But they still don't provide individualized healthcare.  They have greater experience and are successful more often than not with procedures.  Whether a person has a cold or a failing kidney, no doctor can tell the patient what their outcome will be.  Doctors are playing an odds game based on their experience.  With computational modeling such as those I created as an undergraduate, we can move towards individualized healthcare.  For example, we could model bypass surgery and quantify for a patient exactly how much more blood flow they can expect with the surgery.  This is individualized healthcare.  It is not saying, "Mr. John Doe, most patients have better coronary flow with a bypass" and then hoping Mr. John Doe fits into the 'most patients' group.

I quickly killed that thought and accepted that there wouldn't be standardized healthcare anytime soon.  This came from the rather large number of students talking about meaningless topics outside of medicine.  Others were paying even less attention.  One of our PowerPoint slides was of a finger that had been cut off.  One student decided to draw on it and make a dinosaur out of it which he showed to students immediately after lecture---none of which laughed at his drawing.  It would be great for future patients if these students were already at the top of their game.  There are quite a few students who know their stuff, but they are deeply focused with the lecture.  I happen to know these students aren't that bright by the level or lack thereof in their many questions.  They hold up class because they are stuck on slides when they do attention.  The lecturers always pretend to not know their question so they repeat a couple words about the slide and move on.  Occasionally they'll say, "I think I will answer that question by the end of this lecture, and if not, come see me."  Who knows what type of doctors these particular students will be.  Their level of responsibility, however, lets me know that in fifteen years there will still be top doctors, good doctors, mediocre doctors, and bad doctors.  They are probably sure of what specialty they will go in and think they have no incentive to learn anything outside of that specialty.  These will be the doctors that have malpractice issues later on.  I wonder how many 'medical mistakes' are actually made in medical school.

I realize that I too don't pay great attention in lecture.  Yet, I know exactly where I stand as a medical student.  I am the one that makes other students fill uncomfortable because I actually know the material we go over in histology and anatomy.  I am the student who asks the great questions during doctoring/interviewing patients.  I am also the student who studies much less than everyone else.  (I see it as if I learn a topic, then I will never have to study that topic.)  The difference has nothing to do with me being smarter than everyone else.  Memory is the lowest form of intelligence.  Even patients with severe mental retardation can memorize.  Animals can too.  

Perhaps they aren't that motivated.  It's hard for me not to stay motivated when somewhere walking around Los Angeles is a healthy middle aged man.  While I was in class, he was at work.  While I was in anatomy, he picked up his kids from school.  He is now buying some groceries before he heads back home.  He is going to watch television for the rest of today.  I am still deciding what to do for the rest of today.  One day, he won't be middle-aged.  He will be in a hospital.  When I go in to see him, he won't be wondering if on Sept. 2, 2008 I watched television the entire evening.  He won't be wondering how well I did in medical school.  He won't be asking if I was a marginal pass at a medical school with only a pass/fail grading system.  He won't be drilling me with questions to gauge my knowledge.  He won't be doing any of this......and he shouldn't.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Where do I start?  I woke up.  Watched some of LSU vs. Appalachian St.  Bought groceries.  Played guitar.  Took some notes from lecture.  Played guitar.  Watched some of USC vs. Virginia.  Ate some frozen pineapples.  My family knows I love frozen pineapples --they're so good!  Then I watched Alabama destroy a preseason top 10 Clemson football team.  Fortunately I'm at UCLA where no one cares about football or else I might be running around crazy with the masses in Atlanta.  God help me if I happen to find people who actually care about football!  I might not ever be able to focus on medical school.  Today has  been such a good day.  Not perfect though.  I am sweating.  My room just gets so hot.  Staying cool has been my hardest challenge so far in medical school.  I gotta do something about this heat right now.

Adios.

Friday, August 29, 2008

What a day.  I had a meeting at lunch time where students were expressing how stressed out they were and how hard medical school has been.  I feel so out of place because I have near zero stress! Some students were mentioning how much time they were spending on tests.  Their figures were in the multiple hours.  I had to restrain myself from telling them that I get both my tests done in less than 45 minutes at the same time I eat breakfast and listen to music.  I would for sure be the most hated student if I had also mentioned that I bought an electric guitar and amp yesterday.  But oh well, what they don't know can't hurt them.  I'll do some work tonight in addition to playing with my amp blasting throughout all of the Weyburn apartments.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

What a day! First I didn't go to my 11:00am class.  Instead I chose to study for a histology quiz which I aced--(the grade doesn't count btw).  After breezing through my histology class I went and bought an electric guitar.  A Yamaha Pacific 012 and a Line6 15-watt amp!  I keep meaning to spend more time studying, but I keep coming up with more things to occupy my time.  Why do I do this?  So now, I will be jamming out and everyone will hear me due to my room location.  There are great acoustics for sounds from my room to permeate everywhere outside.  Unfortunately I'm not so great on the guitar, or rather, I play the same songs.  I pity the fool who has to walk outside my room.

In any case, I've been MIA from this blog.  I apologize to those who have been suffering from days of boredom without an update of my life.  I will spend more time updating this blog in the next coming days.

Until then, listen to the latest song I am playing.

Friday, August 1, 2008

My TB skin tests were negative.......that's a good thing.  The lady spent two seconds and just said, "oh, nice and negative, is that it?"  That was it.  I walked out.  Yesterday I ate at Roscoe's Chicken and Waffles for the first time.  I couldn't finish my waffles or the half-a-stick of butter on top of them.  I also went shopping at the Beverly Center yesterday.  I was surprised to see so many people at the mall in the middle of a Thursday.  All I could think was, "Shouldn't these people be working?"  I saw entire families at the mall!  Maybe they have some servants or something that was working at that time; these families certainly weren't tourists.  So much has happened but I'm too tired to mention them all.  I feel tired now that I bought the new Jawbone 2 bluetooth headset.  It makes me feel like I've been running errands all day and being productive.  *yawn* I might play guitar and go to sleep........sounds like LiftOff in the morning is in call.